so yesterday was weird. today was just as weird. i seem to have hit the bermuda triangle of work. general funkiness is going down. yesterday i flew down to LA for work for the day. i left early and got home late. it was the equivalent of me driving to San Jose or something for the day. i guess the big difference was that if i ran into someone in the airport i wasn't going to be trading insurance info and i guess at the airport there's slightly more searching of my personal belongings... and bare feet.
anyway... i was in LA for the day. on the plane i sat next to (me at the window, her the aisle) a personal trainer who is looking to build her client list here (she moved here from LA). as she's local. we're going to connect next week. anyway... that was an odd random thing. i was in LA to do a quick presentation about managing your career. yeah. that went ok. it turned into a bit of complaining session... eh. i got a good lunch from it. yum. so that was weird. and then i get back to my computer, check my email - org change! more weird. we're in a team structure and i'm feeling very neutral about the whole thing. weird. i never feel neutral. i'm usually passionate one way or the other... alas neutral. weird. so to feel better i decided i'd look online to buy some shoes. i always feel better about life with new shoes. regardless of how much weight i gain or lose - shoes (& handbags) always fit! unfortunately the online shoe shopping wasn't as good as shopping at the mall. perhaps it was because i wasn't surrounded by lots of styles - but either way it isn't as good when it's online. fortunately i was able to fly home early. yeah.
today i was psyched about work. well, i was excited as much as i usually am. but when i got there - got on my first call of the day (7am) - it all went weird again. i won't get into it - but i have the urge to buy shoes again. i have to go to target tomorrow and i'm doing a girl shopping day with one of my good friends... perhaps that will help me feel less weird.
now, where's that glass of wine to get me out of my weird stage.
Friday, January 26, 2007
Sunday, January 21, 2007
furniture, fire and the contemplation of one's existence
a lot there in that title, i know. so yesterday i went shopping for furniture. i love furniture in a 'i heart furniture' sort of way. IKEA used to be a second home. the entire IKEA catalog apartment was my first. yes my apartment was like edward norton's apartment in 'fight club'. i am in fact writing this from my angby chair. so yes, furniture shopping. so yesterday i saw enough ugly furniture to last me a lifetime! i know ugly is in the mind of the beholder - but really - ew! and not only was it ugly, but overpriced. on sale, my shoe! while driving on the way from shop #4 of the 9 visited... i saw the most horrific car accident of my life.
now admittedly, i've never seen many car accidents but this rivaled hollywood in its gruesomeness, it was far more real than the best michael bay movie effects. a white toyota in the fast lane suddenly drives up the 7' to 8' high embankment separating traffic and starts to flip back-end over front and lands upside down in, what is now, oncoming traffic. A blue ford hits it and i instantly see FIRE. the fire spreads, people stop, 911 is called and as i am on the wrong side of the freeway and don't want to play frogger in distracted traffic, have to continue on. the most horrifying thought - i didn't see anyone get out of the toyota or ford.
someone died. and it hits me that there was little that could have been done to help those people. the fire was instant and the ford had a huge gas tank. as we drive around for the rest of the day - i look at people in cars and think 'don't you realize what just happened?' there is nothing can could have prevented that accident.
yesterday we saw 2 potential accidents in addition to the 1 we did see that happened. the first was a car turning left across 2 lanes of traffic and apparently thinking he could turn before the opposite traffic, but he must have stalled the car because the oncoming VW almost took him out. i know it is a him as we passed the idiot later - definitely having shifting 'issues'. the 2nd accident we saw was a woman in a jag pulling out of the shopping center (also turning left) driving fast and almost taking out a mother and her young son. the driver promptly lights up a cig after that potential accident... yes, a cigarette in your hand is going to help you drive. right.
so yesterday just had me thinking about how life can change in a moment - will it have me change my not-so-wicked ways? probably not. but i need to make sure that my loved ones know that they fall into that category. also i realized that life is too short to spend my time looking at bad/ugly furniture...
now admittedly, i've never seen many car accidents but this rivaled hollywood in its gruesomeness, it was far more real than the best michael bay movie effects. a white toyota in the fast lane suddenly drives up the 7' to 8' high embankment separating traffic and starts to flip back-end over front and lands upside down in, what is now, oncoming traffic. A blue ford hits it and i instantly see FIRE. the fire spreads, people stop, 911 is called and as i am on the wrong side of the freeway and don't want to play frogger in distracted traffic, have to continue on. the most horrifying thought - i didn't see anyone get out of the toyota or ford.
someone died. and it hits me that there was little that could have been done to help those people. the fire was instant and the ford had a huge gas tank. as we drive around for the rest of the day - i look at people in cars and think 'don't you realize what just happened?' there is nothing can could have prevented that accident.
yesterday we saw 2 potential accidents in addition to the 1 we did see that happened. the first was a car turning left across 2 lanes of traffic and apparently thinking he could turn before the opposite traffic, but he must have stalled the car because the oncoming VW almost took him out. i know it is a him as we passed the idiot later - definitely having shifting 'issues'. the 2nd accident we saw was a woman in a jag pulling out of the shopping center (also turning left) driving fast and almost taking out a mother and her young son. the driver promptly lights up a cig after that potential accident... yes, a cigarette in your hand is going to help you drive. right.
so yesterday just had me thinking about how life can change in a moment - will it have me change my not-so-wicked ways? probably not. but i need to make sure that my loved ones know that they fall into that category. also i realized that life is too short to spend my time looking at bad/ugly furniture...
My blog and it's birth
so - i try once again to write a blog. i've started blogs all over town, as it were. i've bought space, i've signed up with email accounts - i've tried them all. so here i am, again.
it's weird becuase there are days when i've thought i need to write a blog about an incident and then i get home - and nothing comes of it. mostly because i can't find my blogs.
so the other day - i ever so brilliantly emailed myself a blog topic while i was at work. i didn't want to blog at work so i figured i'd save that topic nugget for later. (see i don't waste time at work) *cough*
i randomly remembered i sent myself a topic while perusing my email. dork.
so the topic: being given something, and in turn asking for more... ok, i don't mean this in an oliver twist sort of way - or maybe i do. i have a challenge around pushing back or challenging the status quo. i don't want to be one of the sheep of the masses - but alas i am. *baa*
so the topic of this blog would have been how at work i was asked to go back to someone about getting one more spot. it doesn't matter what the spots are for but suffice it to say that someone said we should go back and ask for one more - even though we were told the number we had at the beginning...
ok - i know for a fact that until i can get myself to ask for more i will never be an executive. it holds me back. i know this. after someone says to me 'optimist girl' you have 5 X's (let's say for the sake of arguement, shoes) ... 'optimist girl' you have 5 shoes you can pick - i am not about to go back and ask... oh wait - i might. i love shoes. bad example. but you know where i'm going with this... but i realized this week - that until i can get over it - i'm not going to be a high earning executive with a corner office and fantastic paycheck - i will continue to be - merely a sheep.
*baa*
it's weird becuase there are days when i've thought i need to write a blog about an incident and then i get home - and nothing comes of it. mostly because i can't find my blogs.
so the other day - i ever so brilliantly emailed myself a blog topic while i was at work. i didn't want to blog at work so i figured i'd save that topic nugget for later. (see i don't waste time at work) *cough*
i randomly remembered i sent myself a topic while perusing my email. dork.
so the topic: being given something, and in turn asking for more... ok, i don't mean this in an oliver twist sort of way - or maybe i do. i have a challenge around pushing back or challenging the status quo. i don't want to be one of the sheep of the masses - but alas i am. *baa*
so the topic of this blog would have been how at work i was asked to go back to someone about getting one more spot. it doesn't matter what the spots are for but suffice it to say that someone said we should go back and ask for one more - even though we were told the number we had at the beginning...
ok - i know for a fact that until i can get myself to ask for more i will never be an executive. it holds me back. i know this. after someone says to me 'optimist girl' you have 5 X's (let's say for the sake of arguement, shoes) ... 'optimist girl' you have 5 shoes you can pick - i am not about to go back and ask... oh wait - i might. i love shoes. bad example. but you know where i'm going with this... but i realized this week - that until i can get over it - i'm not going to be a high earning executive with a corner office and fantastic paycheck - i will continue to be - merely a sheep.
*baa*
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