My blog and it's birth

so - i try once again to write a blog. i've started blogs all over town, as it were. i've bought space, i've signed up with email accounts - i've tried them all. so here i am, again.
it's weird becuase there are days when i've thought i need to write a blog about an incident and then i get home - and nothing comes of it. mostly because i can't find my blogs.
so the other day - i ever so brilliantly emailed myself a blog topic while i was at work. i didn't want to blog at work so i figured i'd save that topic nugget for later. (see i don't waste time at work) *cough*
i randomly remembered i sent myself a topic while perusing my email. dork.
so the topic: being given something, and in turn asking for more... ok, i don't mean this in an oliver twist sort of way - or maybe i do. i have a challenge around pushing back or challenging the status quo. i don't want to be one of the sheep of the masses - but alas i am. *baa*
so the topic of this blog would have been how at work i was asked to go back to someone about getting one more spot. it doesn't matter what the spots are for but suffice it to say that someone said we should go back and ask for one more - even though we were told the number we had at the beginning...
ok - i know for a fact that until i can get myself to ask for more i will never be an executive. it holds me back. i know this. after someone says to me 'optimist girl' you have 5 X's (let's say for the sake of arguement, shoes) ... 'optimist girl' you have 5 shoes you can pick - i am not about to go back and ask... oh wait - i might. i love shoes. bad example. but you know where i'm going with this... but i realized this week - that until i can get over it - i'm not going to be a high earning executive with a corner office and fantastic paycheck - i will continue to be - merely a sheep.
*baa*